and1and2and3and

and1and2and3and @ 2008-03-07T06:38:00

2008-02-29T00:18:27Z

i feel like im alive but im not living.
i feel like im just floating..
ive felt this before..the feeling never really went away..i just learned how to ignore it. I don't want to have any regrets or unfinished buisness, I dont know what to do with myself. I don't know where i'm going...and you'll never leave the place youre at unless you figure out where youre going. I know my goals and I know my aspirations but I just can't handle the though of failure. The thought that maybe just maybe..I will be everything they always told me I'd be. I don't want to be like my mom. I don't want to end up like my dad. I just want to be happy, not forever, but eventually,.

These last month has just been so crazy. Brittany has truley grown to be like my sister and bestfriend...My "soul friend" and Lacey has made mylife a lot better too..Two original girls that I can count on, shweeeeeeeet.

and1and2and3and @ 2008-02-29T05:03:00

2008-02-21T22:42:01Z

i guess i just have to accept that you will never be sorry, that i will never make
you proud. It's funny how everything you did impacted me in every way.

and1and2and3and @ 2008-02-25T07:31:00

2008-02-18T01:09:17Z

it feels like im not even living, it feels like i'm just waiting for something.
i wish i knew what that something was...and I don't...so thats just MORE waiting, waiting to find out.
i'm going to drive myself crazy.

me lacey and brittany almost burnt my kitchen down to days ago.
that was so intense.

what if i am what they always told me i'd be.

and1and2and3and @ 2008-02-23T03:02:00

2008-02-15T20:39:01Z

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and1and2and3and @ 2008-02-23T03:01:00

2008-02-15T20:38:25Z

"I don't like it when people get too technical with life. You soak up more time pulling out your camera and turning it on just to take a picture of somethin, when really youre just waisting precious time that you can never get back. Memorys don't fuc*ing last forever, through time they get distorted and foggy, maybe its because I grew up. Maybe it's because I spent so much time trying to remember something perfectly. I couldn't just let the beauty flow through me. I was too busy trying to caputre it."

and1and2and3and @ 2008-02-16T07:44:00

2008-02-09T01:21:56Z

and1and2and3and @ 2008-02-13T03:38:00

2008-02-05T21:14:13Z

Niggas call me Betty Crocker
Cause my cakes stay plenty

and1and2and3and @ 2008-01-27T13:48:00

2008-01-20T07:25:09Z

may angels lead you in

i looked in my old year books, and i had hearts around all your pictures :]

i remember the most embarrasing memory of my life, we were on the bus, and we were goofing off like always, and I went to laugh and this huge string of snot came out of my nose. & I didn't know what to do with it. Just I just kinda flicked it? I don't remember.

I never talked to you after fourth grade, I couldn't find you on myspace.
I remember lastnight I saw a picture of you with a girl and I added it.
I got so excited to finally talk to you, I was going to message you saying "hey remember me! fourth grade!"
Then I saw "RIP" everywhere.

I hope you lived a good life. I really really good life.

and1and2and3and @ 2008-01-27T07:50:00

2008-01-20T01:27:20Z

oh man i wish i didn't get bored of guys so easily.
i really could have liked him.
it was all a game anyways,
i need to stop doing that to boys.

and josh won't quit it.
josh josh josh
silly boy
lying is for pussys.
you brought this on yourself.

my tattoo is finally healed.
i need to start looking for a job now
fuck that.

and1and2and3and @ 2008-01-19T21:32:00

2008-01-12T15:05:04Z

i miss you mikey

and1and2and3and @ 2008-01-18T13:28:00

2008-01-11T06:56:56Z

i`m 18.

and1and2and3and @ 2008-01-07T20:25:00

2007-12-31T09:54:28Z

i am so tired of dealing with weight issues.

and1and2and3and @ 2008-01-02T12:13:00

2007-12-26T01:42:35Z

Do i really want to get married?

and1and2and3and @ 2007-12-25T15:41:00

2007-12-18T05:10:38Z

im almost 18 yay i can date daniel carcillo woo.

i fucking hate this shithole.
<33333333333333333333

and1and2and3and @ 2007-12-06T16:48:00

2007-11-29T06:21:08Z

God, i only feel comfertable at a hockey game. all i really look forward to, that's bad. I don't take days for graunted but i just enjoy myself so much more when i'm at a hockey game..not just because of daniel carcillo..but supporting something and getting into something? Something about it..ahh. You can't just walk around screaming "lets go lets go remote control...change the channel...oh did you see that yesssssssss"

im 18 soon. i'd like to say that i'm TERRIFIED nobodys going to hold my hand...pfft nobody ever did.
THANKYOU FOR THAT.

probably couldn't have said that last year.

i dont know whats going on

p.s;

and1and2and3and @ 2007-11-30T11:50:00

2007-11-23T01:20:59Z

majoring in theology

and1and2and3and @ 2007-11-28T01:10:00

2007-11-20T14:40:30Z

p.s halo 3 blows

and1and2and3and @ 2007-11-28T01:08:00

2007-11-20T14:39:56Z

It's been a long day living with this
It's been a long time since I felt so sick
I took a long walk straight back home
I could've walked back to San Francisco
I used to long for time alone
I used to long for a place of my own
But I'm losing faith in everything
I'm lost, so lost, I'm lost at sea, you see
I used to long for broken bones
I used to long for a casket to call my own
I never had a problem facing fear
But I'm done, over and done my dear and
Oh mercy me
God bless catastrophe
Well there's no way in hell
We'll ever live to see through this so
Drive your self insane tonight
It's not that far away and I just
filled up your tank earlier today
It's been a long day living with this
It's been a long time since I felt so sick
I took a long walk straight back home
I could've walked back to Chicago
I used to long for time alone
I used to long for a place of my own
And I've lost faith in everything
I'm lost, so lost, I'm lost without you

and1and2and3and @ 2007-11-28T01:07:00

2007-11-20T14:37:40Z

fuck all you bitches,
britney spears rox my socks lol!!!

no but seriously perez, fuck off.

and1and2and3and @ 2007-11-11T10:26:00

2007-11-03T23:57:01Z

i'm glad the love i've only experianced was the love that I had for my self.

and1and2and3and @ 2007-11-05T07:57:00

2007-10-28T21:28:06Z

where does love come from, and where does it go when it's gone?
what takes its place, and why does that space turn hard as stone.

and1and2and3and @ 2007-11-01T12:50:00

2007-10-25T02:21:04Z

i found a letter from my uncle.

and1and2and3and @ 2007-10-29T04:11:00

2007-10-21T17:42:36Z

my boy friend spoils me and i want to hate it but i can't
i feel like a bad person.

kjpop

2007-10-17T12:59:57Z

what if we are all decendents of what once was, so we continue to fight the same wars and ask the same questions never failing to be selfish and nieve, no matter age nor gender we are all still lazy. I myself take the blame also. Instead of making change I sit here and write. We all depend on the false fact that "not one man can change the world" but that gives us no reason to sit around and wait for ten people to do it. We were blessed with life to make an impact, wether it be changing someone, saving someone, solving something, you do it, and you do it for unselfish purposes not to be placed in a history book. We tell ourselfs to be honest and loud, and never be afraid to ask questions but yet we sit around hoplessly waiting for the answers, that is pathetic. yes through time all questions can be answered but that shouldn't give us comfort in sitting around in waiting, should it? yet we do daily. I am a firm believer in not waisting paper, so i will write until there isn't an ounce of ink in my pen, even in simple of hopes of someone reading it. my name is of no importance, remember these words and cherish their meaning because words can never die. life is not determined by heartbeat but in meaning. don't let anyone question you or what you stand for, why something means so much to you for God sake fucking believe and don't ever stop. You're only offerend life once, so fucking live it. love with everything inside of you and never give up. No one is remembered for quitting.

and1and2and3and @ 2007-10-24T02:30:00

2007-10-16T16:01:27Z

so stoked that they have viva pinata toys at burger king.<333